Wednesday, March 9, 2011

A while.

I know that it has been way too long, but stuff needs to be said, even if only a few sentences.

It has been a rough month.  I wouldn't call it depression, but I've been in such a rut that I thought that I may be depressed.  I had, and to some extent still have, no motivation for anything.  My self-esteem is rock-bottom, I want to sleep all the time, and, worst of all, I turn to food for comfort.  I feel disgusting--both emotionally and physically.  I feel like the only thing that I still have passion for is my weight.  It is the only thing that makes me get dressed every morning, go to class, and meet up with friends.  It sounds a little weird, I know, but that's all that really matters at this point.

I haven't eaten all day.
But mostly because I chose not to.

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